I learned the value of permission

What do I do on the days that I don't want to take ANY steps on my journey? The days that I just want to curl up and sip on tea, veg out, and remove myself from my responsibilities. The days that I don't want to deal with the daily struggle of anything.

In the past when I have experienced this need to withdraw, I learned to give myself permission not to push myself that day, and to reflect if it was a day to rest and reflect, or to rest and relax with nothing in mind except to just hang out with myself and allow my inner quietness to catch up with my busy daily life. I give myself permission for the opportunity to have a change of scenery, or a change of routine.

I also learned that the more I fight the need to rest and withdraw from my responsibilities, the less effective I am at connecting with my responsibilities effectively, plus I resent what is before me. Yet in the past when I have given myself permission to take the day off or the hour off and do something differently, my so called tasks are not as heavy or troubling when I bring myself back to them. The key for me has been 'permission'.

This power of permission allows me to think about if I am afraid of the work that I am doing, or is my body or my intuition just trying to tell me that I need to reconnect quietly with my inner strength and my inner solitude.

When it feels like that I am resisting my work because of fear, I let that fear speak to me in my quiet moments. I ask myself what am I afraid of? Am I over dramatizing the issue, making the unknown experience worse than it is. I also reflect that perhaps I just need to withdraw from the task so until I can connect with my strength and look at the responsibilities differently.

When I don't wish to take ANY steps on my healing journey, when I don't want to consider what is best for my health, I call my family or one of my friends. I tell them I just want to connect with them, hear their voice, see how they are, have a laugh or cry with them. Many times this is my daughter or my son or grand daughters. There are hundreds of days when I call my husband just to talk for a couple of moments in the day, to feel his love, and after one or two of these phone calls, I am good to go back to my quiet solititude. I remind myself I don't have to make every step every day, and that permission to reflect about what I am feeling and what I am needing is VERY important to me, because it helps me clarify what works for me when I feel stuck on my journey, and when I feel I can't take one more step.

Praying, connecting with nature, and connecting with my loved ones, a change of scenery, or a spontaneous whim all have served me well for reconnecting back to my wellness needs. When I take a deep breath, and say 'hey, I needed this," and give thanks, I feel whole again, and
I can get so much done after taking this time to reconnect to what is best for me.

I practice the power of permission on a regular basis. It makes my prayers even more effective and sacred.

and today, I give myself permission to laugh and to be grateful for my life.